SIGH.. 31st of August 2006.
What a sad day it is. One of the saddest days that I've ever known in my whole life so far. It was the worST Teachers' Day that I've gone through. 'Happy Teachers' Day' that's how we usually greet the day with. But alas, there's a change in history.. no more 'Happy' but 'Sorrow'.
My teacher just stormed outof the classroom today.. All sad and gloomy. Partly cuz the class are lollies during class, but that's a small matter and it can be solved easily. So, what was it?
Selfishness.
A short, sweet word but one which has a meaning of more than a thousand of words. What they did was absurt. Beyond description. Usually, it will go well. Well, it's trus that the past years has been successful thanks to my friends and that this year, it was all on me. But I thought that if I wanna do what I've been doing, it's impossible, knowing the condition of the class. So, I deleted that idea from my mind and looked for others.
We found one. A video. Lakshmi had done on our behalf a great job done all by herself. Really salute her for that and, of course, thankful. It was supposed to be aired today, in class. However, because of what happened, everything's ruined. I was at my seat. Wasn't really aware at what was happening but my ears were still listening to the surrounding sound. I thought that she coul take it, as she always does and solves the problem better than I do. But I was wrong.
This time around, she could no longer take it. It was beyond her power. Her great wall of patience has fallen bit by bit. It was her limit. And then when everything collapsed, there you have it. Nothing.
But even so, What surprised me was that, they didn't realised what they have done. It was really shocking. I shouted at them. This isn't the first time in the year. Not the first time in the term and NOT the FIRST time in this WEEK. So i have to do this EVERY SINGLE DAY? I believe that I don't.
As everyone know, they hate me doing that. But do I like doing that? NO. Hell NO! I'm just like them, a student. One sitting right at the back of the class. Not perfect, not a really good role model but at least, I THINK.
Reflections... Letters... Apologies.. I've mentioned those.. Mistakes...Repititions, these words that I used just now while shouting. Have these words reached your hearts? I wonder. There were faces that said 'yes, I undestand'. While some... totally oblivious to what is going on. Breath was wasted, saliva used up at these. Anger spilt from us. All these.. Seems like they have NO effect on some of YOU. Well then, if it's not some, then at least ONE.
Do you think you're that GREAT? ALMIGHTY and stuff? Cuz if you ask me, the answer is a straight NO. Sprouting vulgarities all day long. Does that show anything? NO! Does that make you strong and good? HELL NO! For goodness sake, you're like.. The BIGGEST coward I've ever known in my whole life so far! Picking on those weaker than you. Those SMALLER in size compared to yours. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?!?
What? Trying to be a freakin' retard?! Hell, man. Youve definitely completed your mission if that's you aim. The words 'Wanna fight?' ALWAYS come out from your mouth but whenever I challenge you back, have you ever took it? NO! And why is that? Cuz you're AFRAID. Afraid that there's someone who is able to BEAT you up and that you'll lose your face!
COWARD
What I really feel like doing now is to handle you; attitude wise. Need to get beaten up before you realise your mistakes?! BY ALL MEANS! Cuz I'm freakin' PISSED OFF right now! And you calle dme crazy? GO AHEAD! I'll just freakin' beat you up like a crazy mad person till YOU DROP! However, of course, I can't do that.
I don't even think that you deserve me beating you up. My fists are just oo good for you. You're just some freakin' loser who don't worth anything AT ALL.
REFLECT
Well then.. Since there's nothing much that I can do.. Reflections.. That's the thing that I can ask them to do.. And I hope that they'll really reflect on what they have done. Not just merely on what I've mentioned to them, but also the things that they HAVE done with their conscious minds...
Well then, I shall end this entry here. My entry on..
Happy Teachers' Day