Friday, April 13, 2007
lol.. It's been such a long time since I touched this bloggie of mine XD but anyway, that's because I've changed my address XDXD teehee.. So sorry for those who have been looking for me all over the place x_______X;;
Nyway, the new webbie is... 200se7en
haha.. It's sexy! i know! XDXD
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8:30 PM
Saturday, October 21, 2006
OH MY GOD.. You know what?!?! I'm starting to despise Blogger right now..
No no.. Not trying to be an anti or whatever.. But MAN!! I wrote an entry yesterday.. And it's literally.. GONE!!!
Shucks.. I wrote such a LONG entry.. About what happened since the past few days.. And about yesterday.. But nvm.. Now that it's gone.. It just tells me that.. It's not meant to be...
Yeah, that's it.. It's just not.. Meant to be. So now no one's gonna know about I felt... Or whatever.. It shall be.. Buried deep in my heart... Where I may never find it again... Maybe I'll just forget about those in the future...
Oh bother... Sighs.. Yesterday was... Let's just say that it was my fault.. Yeah...
I skipped school yesterday and went to Mir's BBQ party... Made new friends.. Introduced friends to other friends.. And yeah.. Sometimes the best things in life may turn out to be the worst.. And vice versa...
And as the saying goes~ "never judge a book by it's cover"
Yeah yeah.. I get the point~ really tired right now.. And man.. Yes.. I have it.. And such things happen. Can you imagine?? It's like the most unimaginable situation.. How sad.. For me..
Gosh.. Okay, for the past few days.. Some new friends that I made are Meiliana, Mandy, Angie (sorry I can't spell your name), Larry, Helana and... More~~
Well, yesterday I almost sounded at the people around me.. I didn't.. Glad I controlled that. But I sort of "blew my top"... And.. Ahh!! Oh no.. I'm gonna write what I wrote yesterday...
I better not... Or else, I think I'm just gonna hurt myself evenmore... Ok ok, I shall stop... It's really regarding that incident only... And yeah.. It made me write a lot... Cuz I poured my feelings into the entry.. But sadly, the entry's gone.. FOREVER.
And since I've said FOREVER... I shall NOT bring it up again.. OR I'll be lying to myself.. So yeah... Ok, I'm beating about the bush right now.. So I shall just end it here...
OH WAIT!! ShinHwa.. They were on TV.. A couple of short times!! XDXD hahah...
Oh yeah.. I also learnt some things... Adverbs were created for a purpose.. They're really not for nothing at all.. Cuz I did realise that..
Sometimes...
Silence IS gold
So yeah,, and.. To those few who I have done wrong...
My deepest and greatest apology to you guys.. I know that one of you know who you are.. And for the other... I'm not sure if you do. You may not even accept it. I don't blame you...
Errmm.. Yeah... I said "other" without an "s"... It's not a typo.. Cuz feel that I have really wronged these two people...So yeah...
And for the others too.. I'll talk when the time is right.. When Yeah... Guess this whole thing just made me tired ^^;; and Thnx Din for yeah..
Alright.. And we've come to the end of this.. heheh.. Let me make a confession!!! XDXD as always...
ShinDi nun ShinHwa rul SARANG HAMNIDA!!!
I miss ShinHwa, MinWoo and Se7en!! XD
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11:20 PM
Friday, September 15, 2006
OH MY GOD!!! *smacks self* so much for updating my daily life "especially-about-what-has-been-going-on-lately"!!! ARGGHHHH! *smacks self again*
I DIDN'T UPDATE ABOUT 13/11.. Oh yeah.. if you look at the timing on each post.. It's all AM.. So yeah.. They're supposed to happen on day before (actually a few hours before to be specific XD)
And now.. What really happened was that.. JunJin waved at me!! Oh ym god~~ I was sooo happy!!! I mean.. Last two years he shook my hand!! And now he waved at me!!! AARRHHH~~~ XDXD
And on the last post.. It wasn't all that I wanted to say.. Well, let's see.. 5 out of 6 of them had at least looked at my direction!!! XDXD oh my gosh~~~ I'm SoooOOOoo on Cloud9!!!
First was DongWan, during the concert.. Okay, the waved at that direction.. And then this direction and so on.. And he waved at my direction too!! ^^ (I do not know if this is counted since he waved at everyone.. But hey, it was my direction too.. although quite a number of people can say this too! ^^;) then it was followed by MinWoo!! ^^ Hehehe.. Cuz I think they were performing "Angel".. And we were screaming.. But there was this point of time when everyone sort of... Lowered down their volume in order to listen to the song.. Cuz yeah.. It aint tt fast you know.. there.. I'll be posting the song on top.For your convenience. =]
And then.. I took the chance and shouted "MinWooo!!!" And yesh!! I think he managed to hear that.. Although a lil and started to "search" for the source of that voice.. And managed to look at my direction!! XD but of course, he wasnt sure which gal that came from.. Even so.. I'm quite satisfied already.. It was really hard man! XD I saw this person near me covering her ear.. Must have been really loud @_@ sorry!!!
Then it was the end of the concert.. Was pretty sad.. Cuz I felt like.. Man.. Only 2?? and in fact, the two wasn't really everlasting too.. But then.. During their sending of.. Hehehe!! Well, like I said before.. Andy really looked at me!!! Hmm.. I think it was caught on a few of the fancams XD wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! Feel like habing them!! although I already have one.. Which only recorded it for 2 seconds.. I want more!!! Q_Q
Then after that I didn't follow any of them down.. Although many people already went down.. Oh yeah.. Not to forget LUG~~ EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM WERE RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FACE but.. I totally forget to REACT!! OMG!! I felt like a total FOOL.. I mean.. THEY WERE SO GODDAMN NEAR ME!! IM HELLA SERIOUS!! If those LUG fans knew.. I think they'll smack me right on the spot or even kill me.. BUT!! I DIDNT REACT!! I only greeted them and they greeted me.. Then it came to me that I didnt ask for their AUTOGRAPH or A SHAKE OR WHATEVER!! And I WAS SOOOO DISAPPOINTED!!
Anyway.. As I was saying.. Let's forget aobut my disappointment.. As long as I remember it.. Hikz.. I waited and waved and all.. Cuz I knew that MinWoo and DongWan won't really you know.. Respond.. And anyway.. Since I already had it during the concert.. I went after HyeSung, who was the last one to leave the lounge.. and I'm VERY satisfied with my decision!! ^^ Hehehe~~ Cuz he waved at me!! ^o^ WHEEE!! It's like.. I ran there.. WIth some other fans.. But I reached the other side first.. And then he waved at me over there first!! ^o^ teehee!!! =DD Happy!!!!
So yeah.. That makes 4 already.. (Or 3, w/o DW) and then the last day.. It was JunJin!!! OMG!! I could have gone close to him if I were like one of those fans who well you know went for him to the check-in point.. But I didn't. Cuz I see that there were so many fans already.. And decided not to butt in. And waited at the viewing mall instead.
Hehehe~~ He's still as kind as always!! ^^ JunJin Oppa!! Hwaiting!! Forever!! ^^ And when he looked at me and waved, my friend was recording that!! ARRHH!! If only she was with me at all the other 2 events as well.. (Andy and HyeSung) cuz the 3 of them really really practically looked at ME!!!! YESH!! Unlike DongWan and MinWoo who looked at my direction.. Okay, wait.. At least MinWoo's case was better than DongWan's case.. Cuz at least I know that I was one of the girls that MinWoo saw.. But for DongWan.. Lesser, I guess.. Nah.. I can't really say.. So yeah..
I really feel kinda sad because of that.. But nvm~~ ^^ wheeeeeee!! OMG! I can't wait.. But I think I do know a person who recorded the Andy event.. Just that.. For the HyeSung's.. I don't think so... Q_Q ARRGHH!! Wanna cry!!! TT^TT HOW?!?!?
XDXD and the LUG AS WELL!! OMG!! CIndy!! You're such a loser at that moment!! Seriously.. I think It's because I was soo sad at that time yeah.. That I didn't have camera and all.. And was thinking about those.. But luckily I recovered fast from those feelings.. CUZ IF NOT!! Imma knock myself and IMMA get killed BY MY SIS!!! BUT phew.. Luckily I didn't.. And those attention that I managed to get from the 3(+2) of them might cover that point up! ^^;;; SIGH!!
HAha.. But I do know a friend who got MinWoo's "You... My girlfriend?" though.. Lucky, right?? Yeah.. HEHehe.. Let's just say that we're lucky.. I mean.. Hmm.. I'm lucky enough to be there and all ya know.. Yes.. Although not AS much AS the others.. But I have to keep in mind that there are also some that are not As lucky As me.. =]]] Come on cindy!! =DDHehehe~~ you can do it!! ^^
Ok.. I'm cheering myself up.. SHucks.. Haha.. And yeah.. I saw MS CHOO AFTER THE CONCERT!! Like.. WTH!! XDXD WAHH!! And hmm..Saw the ShinHwa guys at the backdoor after the concert.. HEheh =] DongWan was the clearest at that time.. Sighh.. What to do? I was soo tired.. And yesh.. The last person, out of the six, that I've talked about the least is Eric.. Cuz I seldom see him and he was sick too.. And yeah.. Didn't manage to send him or grab his attention.. Sorry Eric fans @_@ and hey.. I met a new friend online.. She's Ayu.. HEhehe.. Just by typing about how we felt.. We sort of.. "Shared our moments" And hey.. That's really nice! ^^ heheeh..
Okie okie~~ Shall stop here now! Cya guys~~
Oh wait.. Yest.. I slept throughout the curriculum time in sch.. REally.. My aunt told me not to go to school cuz I slept really night the night before, doing project until 3AM and I was really tired.. When I chased the guys, I was tired but content and happy. But this was not.. Especially after the party too.. MY goodness.. really bad for me.. and yeah.. Slept the ENTIRE day.. But managed to finish my HomeEc project yeasterday.. Until 5 PM yeasterday.. But Mrs Chua already went home.. So yeah.. Passed it up today during recess.
And.. Just now J was talking to him.. They were talking about something that I know of.. But he was signalling something using his eyes.. I think I'm not supposed to know about that.. Although I actually do.. Cuz hehehe.. I'm the devil one you know.. Ok, sometimes angel.. Ok, forget that. I'm none. I'm just a human who is.. Ok, forget this too.. HAha!! Confidential XDXD so yeah.. And it was supposed to mean something.. And I'm afraid that I misinterpreted it.. And yeah.. I do realise something.. Just don't wanna say it now.. Maybe next week?? Or so.. Donno.. Q_Q Sigh.. Now in such a dellima.. And so many things happened.. Haha~~ XD told Disa today about the.. ShinHwa guys XD haha.. She was jealous.. Kinda.. HAhah!! MUAHAHAH!! XD I'm sooo evil!! ARRHH~~ XDXD
Kk.. I'm really going now!! ^^ byess~~
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9:41 PM
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
hey guys.. Wanted to update today.. As i've said earlier on.. But I can't... I'm too tired.. And so many thing shave happened!! My goodness.. This is not good for me man.. Cuz I can't seem to record them down here~~ Due to too much.. I dunno.. Things to do?? No time to update about my daily lives.. Especially nowadays.. The one of the most crucial times in my life!!! X___X
But nvm.. As long as I've wrote them down somewhere.. ShinHwa ChangJo, that is. At least I know what's going on.. And writing really doesn't say everything in a person's heart yeah... It's all in my memory man... ARgghh~~
Ahh.. And about today~~ I came home late after band.. And at around 7.22 I decided that I must go to the airport.. So I went!! I took a quick shower with soap and went off~~~
It was really really unexpected.. Cuz I thought that I was soooo late~~ And I thought that I couldn't make it.. Their flight is at 10.35PM and then they would most probably go at 9.00Pm so my time was really tight!!! And then I reached there at about 8.30?? X___x yeah~~ tight, huh?? But I'm really really greatful..
Managed to see all of them.. And then able to "communicate" with some of them through hands.. Oh!! The one that I managed to really grab the attention of was Andy!! Hahah.. I do not know why.. Oh! I know.. Cuz he's the nicest outof them all yeah.. So yeah..
It's so late now.. I really can't afford to update this now.. So I shall stop here first for the moment.. Maybe I can't update tomorrow as well.. Or the next two days.. Gotta update it maybe in the weekend or something?? WOW!! So long.. I'll really find a day man.. AARRHHHH!! XDXDXDXD
This reminds me soo much of Euphoria '04!! XDXD Oct.. But of course, that time was better.. In a way.. My sis was there.. It was our first time.. Cuz that's the first time ShinHwa cam ehere.. And the first time I chased a star.. And it was all sooo everlasting.. And now it isn't really.. Well, not as much.. I'll tell you why yeah.. So for now.. Byee~~ Good night!! ^^
SHINHWA HWAITING!!! XD
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2:57 AM
Monday, September 11, 2006
ahhh!! XDXD can't believe it!! I went~~ Yes, mom.. It's selfish of me.. But it's once in a while.. And when else will they be able to come?? Who knows.. And thank you soo much..
hey guys.. I didn't really want to write an entry today (now, to be specific) since it's already this late.. But I guess that since i've already turned on the computer for the History thing.. Might as well write a line or two about today.. hehe XP
ShinHwa concert!! Yes!!! Kiaaaaaaaaaaaaaa XDXDXD unbelievable,huh?? XDXDXD but anyway.. I think that I should stop here.. There's school tomorrow.. Okay, later.. SO yeah ^^; Hahah.. Saranghae ShinHwa Oppa~~ Miyanhaeyo.. I can't "stalk" with the others.. And this whole thing was, in fact, a pretty last-minute thing for me.. I know.. My bad.. But hey!! At last!! I managed to.. Was pretty surprised.. VERY in fact.. ^^;;
Okie dokie!! Shall stop here for now..~~ Nytzzz~~ ^^ Yongwonie~ Chowaiyo~~ =]]
SHINHWA CHANGJO!! <3
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2:42 AM
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Hmm.. On Saturday.. 2nd of Sept?? I think so. Waahhh!! SOOO COOL!!! XDXDXD
The BDAs and friends totally rock man!! Especially when they played Riverdance. They were like, WOW!!!! Especially the curved soprano sax!!! XDXDXD Leslie!!!!! Hehe... he was the soloist for that. And the song consisted of mainly running notes man!! @_@
and then some of the players that Aishah and I really loved were Poon!! Man. He played the French horn sooo majestically like.. Whoaw... and then Jeremy looked not too bad too =D
Plus, of course, the Trombone association~~~~ Man!! Aishah called me nuts because of them.. So bad~~ Hahahha~~ And actually, everything there rock!! The whole concert was really worth it!!! Totally man!
And the conductor, too, was very fun! ^^ hahaha.. Maestro Shuichi Komiyama~~ =] All of them are Oh so cool.
Then that night, I almost had a heart attack when Aishah told me a story. It was.. FREAKY... Haha~ But the whole night totally rules aight. KK~ shall stop here. And Hah!!! At last!! The talents that trombone holds was shown!!! Totally proud of that!!! =DD
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8:54 PM
Friday, September 01, 2006
SIGH.. 31st of August 2006.
What a sad day it is. One of the saddest days that I've ever known in my whole life so far. It was the worST Teachers' Day that I've gone through. 'Happy Teachers' Day' that's how we usually greet the day with. But alas, there's a change in history.. no more 'Happy' but 'Sorrow'.
My teacher just stormed outof the classroom today.. All sad and gloomy. Partly cuz the class are lollies during class, but that's a small matter and it can be solved easily. So, what was it?
Selfishness.
A short, sweet word but one which has a meaning of more than a thousand of words. What they did was absurt. Beyond description. Usually, it will go well. Well, it's trus that the past years has been successful thanks to my friends and that this year, it was all on me. But I thought that if I wanna do what I've been doing, it's impossible, knowing the condition of the class. So, I deleted that idea from my mind and looked for others.
We found one. A video. Lakshmi had done on our behalf a great job done all by herself. Really salute her for that and, of course, thankful. It was supposed to be aired today, in class. However, because of what happened, everything's ruined. I was at my seat. Wasn't really aware at what was happening but my ears were still listening to the surrounding sound. I thought that she coul take it, as she always does and solves the problem better than I do. But I was wrong.
This time around, she could no longer take it. It was beyond her power. Her great wall of patience has fallen bit by bit. It was her limit. And then when everything collapsed, there you have it. Nothing.
But even so, What surprised me was that, they didn't realised what they have done. It was really shocking. I shouted at them. This isn't the first time in the year. Not the first time in the term and NOT the FIRST time in this WEEK. So i have to do this EVERY SINGLE DAY? I believe that I don't.
As everyone know, they hate me doing that. But do I like doing that? NO. Hell NO! I'm just like them, a student. One sitting right at the back of the class. Not perfect, not a really good role model but at least, I THINK.
Reflections... Letters... Apologies.. I've mentioned those.. Mistakes...Repititions, these words that I used just now while shouting. Have these words reached your hearts? I wonder. There were faces that said 'yes, I undestand'. While some... totally oblivious to what is going on. Breath was wasted, saliva used up at these. Anger spilt from us. All these.. Seems like they have NO effect on some of YOU. Well then, if it's not some, then at least ONE.
Do you think you're that GREAT? ALMIGHTY and stuff? Cuz if you ask me, the answer is a straight NO. Sprouting vulgarities all day long. Does that show anything? NO! Does that make you strong and good? HELL NO! For goodness sake, you're like.. The BIGGEST coward I've ever known in my whole life so far! Picking on those weaker than you. Those SMALLER in size compared to yours. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?!?
What? Trying to be a freakin' retard?! Hell, man. Youve definitely completed your mission if that's you aim. The words 'Wanna fight?' ALWAYS come out from your mouth but whenever I challenge you back, have you ever took it? NO! And why is that? Cuz you're AFRAID. Afraid that there's someone who is able to BEAT you up and that you'll lose your face!
COWARD
What I really feel like doing now is to handle you; attitude wise. Need to get beaten up before you realise your mistakes?! BY ALL MEANS! Cuz I'm freakin' PISSED OFF right now! And you calle dme crazy? GO AHEAD! I'll just freakin' beat you up like a crazy mad person till YOU DROP! However, of course, I can't do that.
I don't even think that you deserve me beating you up. My fists are just oo good for you. You're just some freakin' loser who don't worth anything AT ALL.
REFLECT
Well then.. Since there's nothing much that I can do.. Reflections.. That's the thing that I can ask them to do.. And I hope that they'll really reflect on what they have done. Not just merely on what I've mentioned to them, but also the things that they HAVE done with their conscious minds...
Well then, I shall end this entry here. My entry on..
Happy Teachers' Day
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12:06 AM